Friends - MF Doom

So that was a quick post and this will be a quick one, too. I've been exploring my 'career options' for almost 10 months now. yup. ten months of basic unemployment. amazing ive survived as long as i have.
one good thing: ive had tons of time to think about this sort of thing and where i want to go with my life and what i want to do. a couple of things ive figured out i need to be happy.

1) city lifestyle.
-fuck living in the country. i can be pretty fickle at times. ye olde grass is always greener syndrome hits me hardest when im not that happy. but fuck country living. i was really looking forward to living in small-town ohio again. green grass, open space, bbqs, etc etc. well fuck all that. it was great in the summer, right after i moved back. i hadnt been around green grass and open space in so long i ate that shit up. well, no more. i have realized this: the longer i live in a small town, the less likely i am to be happy. the longer i live in a huge ass city, the longer it takes me to get to a point where i am happy, but once i get there, my happiness just keeps going up and up. so fuck a bunch of country living magazines.

2) lots of options.
-okay this sort of ties in with #1 but i think id be happy even with a smaller city if there were things to do. fuck the going to a bar life. how about movies, clubs, shows, museums, record stores? if oxford had any of that shit, or if cinci did either, id keep busy. *yes i know cinci has some of these things. im poor and can't afford to drive there every weekend.

3) privacy
-while my last job didn't turn out to be the ideal job for me, i did a pretty good job and was happy with it. it kept me busy. the only major complaint i have was the baggage that comes with being a 'teacher.' its a job with responsibilities to the community you work in. thats cool, and i liked doing that, but my private life felt the effects. even being the son of a teacher here, i feel it. id rather have a job which allows me some personal freedom.

4) i don't think i will teach.
-yeah. educatin' ain't really my thing. i keep going back and forth on this one, i know. i know i know i know. but seriously, i think i like it because i know i can do it. then i get to the classroom and then i sigh because it can be so goddamn frustrating. it only takes one kid to make things go wrong. it takes an entire class to make things run perfectly. so while educating will pay the bills for now, i know in my heart i can't make a career out of it. i dont want to end up as disgruntled as my fed. gov. teacher was before retirement.

5) i like writing
-yeah. i do. i like writing. i especially like editing things. improving on other people's work. suggestions. also writing can be fun, too. i haven't done too much of it though. i hardly consider blogging to be writing. i have done some, but nothing in the last 3 years id consider worthy of giving a second glance. thats one problem. the other problem? i have no idea if im 'good' at writing or if i should even consider pursuing a writing career. maybe i should give it a shot, though. i know this sounds laughable but it as its my only frame of reference: "i did get "A"s on almost every english paper i wrote in college...."